Blargh

My voice still isn't my own...and I hate it, I hate the voice, I hate the words it says, the way it says them. I HATE IT. Even my singing voice sounds shitty. I'm going to stay clean for the month...but fuck, I want to harm and stay silent for the night. Please, just don't talk to me...don't make me speak aloud, I hate the sound of my voice.