Fuck it

Ok, you know what? I don't care how this sounds. G broke up with D again, I think it's permanent this time. He's going to kill himself. It may sound selfish and shallow, but I can't handle a suicide. I'm trying so hard not to break down and panic because my friend is next to me but fuck! I know where the knife is. I might not last til day 11. I'm so broken already, this may send me over the edge. It's going to be a long night, readers. I'll keep you updated.